I became unwell at 21 with an acute episode of schizophrenia and I was a student at this time, doing a HND in Leamington Spa, this being irrelevant but the experience being relevant. Before this point I knew I had clinical depression as I smoked a lot
of marijuana and did other recreation drugs, enough to do anybody’s head in but as a combination of being a in car crash and sustaining a head injury and coming from somewhat broken background with broken-down relationships in family and having a mum who had always had mental health unwellness. as a child I wondered why she’s so aggressive and so bad tempered and so often I was at the brunt of her aggressive outbursts can remember a lot of smacks at that early age.
But somehow even at that age I understood she was n’t well and incidentally still think the world of my mum because I know she came from an abusive background herself. That’s my first point on mental health often, not always, it can come from the crib. The outside problem is reaching a destination without an accident but the internal problem is struggling with your own feeling and not laying blame on yourself for what has happened like children do for what ever trauma they go through. Another example of this is divorce children often blame themselves for what has happened.
Later on in life trauma has a way of coming to the forefront and struggling with our own internal feeling can be the breakdown itself. Like a car you’re trying to prevent a breakdown so the intervention team are the mechanics at the wheel repairing the disrepair and fixing problems before any arise. A professor Jacques Lacan suggested that we are constantly experiencing fundamental dimensions of our inner selves ranging from happiness or contentment to the terrors of paranoia and implosion. We are dependent on belief and confidence.
There are different theories about us but generally we have self fulfilling prophecies that shape ourselves about the individual ourselves. These break down if confidence in the self weakens and there is no shame in this as this is a strength recognising your own feelings. The looking glass self has two parts what we see in the mirror whether we like what we see or what others think of us which can often be more powerful. Have you ever been in a group and you think someone has said something negative about you this effects our self esteem everyone wants to be liked but often if you are sensitive the feeling that you get turns into depression but there are some stages beginning, middle and end. Depression, fear of the unknown, passive listening and then taking a risk, then relief at the outcome. Health as in physical, eating well, exercising and being loved, having a good network being around well people, positive encouragement, being told you can rather than you can’t.
If you have a go you will get something out of it , a friend, a meeting place, praise even a point for scoring against opposition. That is what intervention teams are saying! Take a risk, get into something creative whether it be drawing, design, whether it be with material ,wood, metal or DIY or an acting group, self expression or maybe a general knowledge quiz. Something you like or think you may be good at. Have a go!